sleepless rabble 001

once more i find myself facing an ageing clock while hours and subconscious dramas slip past me like poisons through cigarette filters. if not for the fact that i am tired i would be practicing productivity and fulfilling punctual promises. i have been away and i have been busy. i have been absently occupied with another's trivial responsibilities. spending my hours achieving another's dreams for the sake of a few slices of silver. to complain and bicker would be wasteful, for a beggar cannot choose from whose plate his next meal will be scraped from.

its funny to say that i find myself, because quite frankly i feel as lost as usual. the bed calls to my aching body and flustered mind only to be met with a corpse that will not stop thinking. cogs that will not stop turning. constantly constructing partially defrosted concepts without the resources to ever be... and in this moment of make believe and party favors the mind cannot help but turn to the mortality of its master, to the irreversible and inevitable end, and then, and then eyes refuse to close, for fear of a sleep without credits.

to sleep perchance to dream... of matadors and weaponry, of libraries and academic failure. unless of course the sun doth shine inside this depth of mine and i am gifted with thoughts of you. you as you are and you as you have never been. masquerading as another, in transparent foliage... but it is you. i recognize, i know you well, like the back of my hand. oh but how to pronounce layers of skin, meat and bone to convey memories of warm embraces?

without pausing and allowing passage to green lights of criticism one is left flooded in the reality of being awake. unfortunate, and inconvenient are these lines as they will not bring the desired result but rather the opposite. like extinguishing a flame with gasoline and broken fingers i am left burnt and inspired. left in the darkness with a senile clock i have come to call friend.

floating in space and water

hey,

i have been away. not literally or physically. but... away nonetheless.

some time has been spent doing nothing of importance, some was spent job-hunting yet again. however, i have also been productive. or semi-productive.

i have been lining away at my crew of unfortunate astronauts and going insane in the membrane trying to figure out exactly what to do with them. as i did not want to simply do drawings. been working on collage-y elements and... yea we'll see.

here is a teaser for what i'm up to:

also i have been reading The Walking Dead by Robert Kirkman. i love this guy. he is seriously one of my top 5 comic writers of all time. he also writes INVINCIBLE which i also recommend.

so when i'm not thinking about how to prepare for the zombie apocalypse and whatnot i have decided to do some watercolours again. yes itsthat time again. it started with a kid in costume. which then led to odd couples. and then i decided i wanted to maybe try at a story. a children's story but not really. i have no set story or anything of the sort yet. but here is what has been coming out:

this one here scanned with odd colours. but you get the idea. i think i actually like how the next two turned out. will probably do 3 or so more in this direction. i guess the kid is dreaming and shit happens in his dreams. bad things. yea... i have been having odd dreams lately. not that these are based on my dreams at all.

thats it for now folks. i have a bunch more things on the go to blog about. blogging is so exhausting sometimes. by exhausting i mean i want some mini wheats. and i'm off.

these days

hey,

been pretty blah these days. various reasons.

been workin on ma astronauts... still need to figure out how to make everything come together in the end. bg and scale and whatnot. also i have been playing with/obsessing over action figures more than usual lately. quite possibly will result in some kind of stop-motion action figure magic. seriously. been making little couches and carpets and hardwood floors... madness.

here are some random shots i made.

also a random sketch from being all blah. whilst drinking my afternoon coffee.

space cadet

hey,

i am currently sniffling and sneezing like only i can. i am drinking lots of liquids... mostly juice. which is making my teeth hurt. i just can't win. but enough pity partying for today!

not sure if i have already mentioned this... but the space themed show entitled "Get Your Ass to Mars" will soon be upon us. which is pretty great. when people say space i usually don't think of planets and aliens... but astronauts, cosmonauts if you will. maybe its because it was my child-hood dream to fly off into the blackness of space and eat weird paste food. nonetheless thats what came to mind and thats the route i'm-a-gonna take.

trying something different this time.

not to give too much away but this piece here was kind of the jumping point.

so yea... something kinda like this will be what i will bring to the party. except no digital-ness.

good? maybe.

dreaming of and with

dear Jessica,

i crawled into bed beside you at around 7am. you were not impressed but not upset. drunk and sore i quickly fell asleep. your alarm woke us two hours later, you had to get ready for school. we exchanged a few words while i was half asleep, i remember being half conscious the entire time. but at the same time i was dreaming... as i often do.

i was dreaming that i was in bed... while you were getting ready. and in that dream i dreamt i was in bed, while you were getting ready, and we were chatting and having good times... conversations and words which then trickled out of this dream and had me talking in my sleep... or at least while half-sleep in my dream.

these dreams went on for what felt like hours.

i was going through your binders and was impressed with how organized you were. you showed me a plasticine Superman you made me. it felt like i had been lying in bed, shielding my eyes from the bedroom light for hours and hours, when in reality only one hour had passed. you shook me at around 10, asking if i could join you for breakfast, i was surprisingly awake and alert. rested. it really felt as if i was in bed longer than i was.

but what i find funniest is that with all the possible realities and scenarios that i was capable of dreaming up, i found myself right where i was. with you in my room, making small talk and laughing before you went off to school.

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anwyays, that is what happened this morning and i decided to blog about it in a letter form to my lovely lady. the dream was pretty crazy. but also really convenient because i have had these drawings kicking around for a few days and this is a great way to bring them up on the blog!

not entirely sure what to do with them... an animation of sorts seems like a good idea. i'm sure the concept/characters will pop up again in one of my many projects. what do you think?

fyi they are matryoshka dolls... of sorts.

speaking of dreams... i have yet to see INCEPTION. everyone else has and says good things. i will eventually. but much like the blue faced AVATAR movie, i will probably avoid it just because there is so much hype. nonsense i know.

inter-view

hey,

so the other day i received an email which led to a visit from the lovely Erin Hogue to my home studio. Erin came with camera in hand, followed by a bunch of questions, thus producing an entry of yours truly in her cool artist and such blog at PUSH.ca

you can see what i'm talking about right here: Erin Houge interview

quarter century and counting

hey,

so, my birthday past a few days ago. the birthday celebrations were pretty alright. good times were had. whenever my birthday rolls around i can't help but be in a bad mood. not because i am getting older, but because i always try to set some sort of plans/events in motion and they always fall short. 'round my birthday "week" i'm usually quite the diva, i don't mean to be but it just happens... and then i can't shake it off. but whatever. thats over and done with. had fun with friends at Centreville, followed by an unexpected get-together at the gallery, dinner with the family, good times.

unfortunately looking back at what i have accomplished thus far at 25 i can't help but noticed its been mostly eating/spilling on myself, video games, sleeping, and really doing nothing of merit. all in all i have been a slug of a man and need to snap out of it. between this post and the last there are many things i have wanted to say/share but for whatever reason didn't get around to it... so whatever they were, they are now in the yesterdays.

enough of that. here are some drawings i recently coloured. :D

here is the office-y tree character and skull guy again. in this case i decided that i'm the skull headed guy, the girl is my girlfriend. awww... i don't know who that makes the other characters.

not sure where i am going with this one... colour-wise. may just scrap it as colour altogether.

i like how this one turned out. i've never stuck to such a limited palette before. i think its good. like my phony Japanese writing? its just numbers mashed together. haha maybe i should have just researched some kanji. like "strength" or something.

also here is music video for a song i'm looping lately.

more blogging to come. random stuff.