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Things are different. Without being aware of the changing things have changed. I think I know who I want to be, or better said, I know who I have to be. I need an end game, an actual plan, because things are different. If I fail and fall I wont be the only one with bruises, maybe I can convince myself that mediocrity isn't too bad, but it's not just about me anymore. It really shouldn't come as a surprise, knew it would happen... but then why am I still trying to figure this out? I'll figure it out. Eventually. Been focusing more on drawing. The illustrator game, I don't really think it's the ticket out of the hole I've dug myself but its probably the only ticket I have. Unless the lotto ticket in my pocket is worth anything ;)

I drew the first guy on the left for an idea I have for what the new website will look like...wasn't entirely convinced so I kept making more. Stopped at 4, posted them up on my Facebook page to be voted on. Number 3 won! ...which is great...but I'm still not 100% sure haha. Here are some sketches and such I've done, I apologize for the instagram filters haha, seems to be the only way/reason I document things lately.. that needs to change.

Doing this through a phone app, don't know how it'll actually look like in the end. Trying to limit how much time I waste being a zombie in front of laptop and actually get work done!! @#&##%&!! And on that note... gotta get making some lines. Rebuild one line at a time. Hrmmm kinda makes me sound like a coke fiend.

am i old yet?

30 days from now i will be married

a couple of days after that we will be welcoming the year 2014.

months will pass and i will be a 30 year old, married man. will i still be working the same miserable job? will my to-do list still be as long as it is today? will my string of bad financial decisions catch up with me? will i continue to collect action figures and the sort? oooh such concerns for the future!!

what am i going on about? am i actually concerned about these things? am i so vain that i worry about the white hairs that will probably soon outnumber the dark ones?... provided of course i still have hair.

the answer: mmmaybe. i don't know for certain. but that's really the root of all these concerns. the uncertainty of the future. i have a long, long list of plans and hopes and dreams, but unfortunately the time and energy i have allotted to attack this list is very limited. therein lies the rub.

so i am still on this dead-giant-astronauts kick. the above is one of many in the works. colouring takes more time than drawing sometimes. i blame technology....

so all these drawings and ideas are starting to actually become something in my head. i have an idea for what can be a pretty awesome zine/small book. not to give too much away; it is related to the one-way Mars trip that was announced. i keep thinking about it! i mean, i am obviously not going to apply (also its too late) but the very concept of it has turned my world upside down!

drew this a while back. then coloured it and made some prints to sell at a show. need to make some more and get printed. maybe assemble some postcards for peeps. ah the list! the list!!

apparently it has been a long while since i have posted on here, so of course there are tons of drawings that have passed between now and then. my apologies to whoever actually checks this blog. yes you. you!!

got some hardwood scraps to work on. maybe i will do a few more. if they were a bit longer i can connect them in various combinations and make some fantastic exquisite corpses. 

nothing too exciting to report. just felt the need to post SOMETHING! if things go well in my brains i will be able to post more frequently and with actual content. but who knows for sure. as i said, so much is uncertain. well... not everything i suppose.
30 days from now i will be married. so even though i am unsure of where i will be and what i will be doing in the years to come; i know who i will be with. and that makes me pretty gosh-darn happy. even if i can't get her to read a comic-book :-\

imported breakfast cereals

hey. hows it going?
i'm doing alright, chugging along the track i have laid out for myself. checking things off my daily lists, high-fiving myself metaphysically  things are good. if not for the sudden return of winter outside, i would say things are fantastic. but who am i to complain about the weather? i know my complaints and lengthy letters to the weather bureau won't actually affect anything, but hey, we all do it.

i have an instagram account now! i will be using it to post pics of works as i am working on them, maybe some action figure photos... pictures of the dog... and food i guess, since that does seem to be the primary purpose of this app. i dont know how, if i even can, put a link to my instagram flow thinger... so just look me up! HUGOISAGHOST  is my thing. my handle...

so yea, i post stuff like this ^  and then later on will post the finished piece either on my FB page or on here, or wherever... until i get the website redone and shiny again this will be the way i get stuff out... or i will keep some pieces secret until i can BAM show on new site!

 i feel like i am going back to my roots. back to the basics. drawing for the hell of it, on random pads of paper here and there. i have 2 nice pads of vellum paper, 2 watercolour pads... oh yea, i think im good for a couple of weeks. debating what will become of the full roll of mylar from way back. something will happen. something. i enjoyed working on mylar too much to just walk away from it. so we'll see..

most every drawing i do lately has at least one skull involved. not necessarily a bad thing... or a good thing. i think i have to try to avoid the skulls a bit, just to make sure i can. just to make sure i am not trapped to forever draw skulls!

been doodling on coloured paper too. using a pen of different weight, putting lines down on funky colours... it really calls forth a new level of fun in subject matter. more punch! i guess i have always known this... but just saying. Oh! so i have decided that i will release a new zine or... lets say before May. i have not put together a zine since 2009! i only have one copy of that zine and its so nice to look back on. need to revisit the art of zines!!! i intend to actually put effort into spreading the news and shipping these badboys out. opposed to sitting at a table at a zine fair and waiting for the people to come to me. no no no. no more of that nonsense.  gotta go for the kill! grrrr... grr... meow.

on an unrelated note i have had Elmo's song stuck in my head. but instead of the actual words i have meows. its pretty awful. maybe more coffee will make it stop. yes... that makes sense.

hours to go!

hey internet peoples!!

this year is just about up, drinks are being poured, lists for changes are being made... and after all is said and done, its just another day. 

hey so the world didn't end a couple days ago, thats pretty cool, would have been a bummer for sure! hope everyone is doing good, in good health and all that, high spirits. things are good on my end, been busy here and there and so on... lets see... biggest piece of news; got ENGAGED! madness i know. if you know me you know its been a long time coming and i couldn't be happier! now comes the incredible stress and panic of planning the actual event. 

on the art front its been pretty quiet. i did however come to a revelation... i'm an "illustrator" more than i am anything else. if you ask me to draw you a ninja squirrel i will laugh for a few minutes and get it done with gusto! though having to stop and try to think of getting back into galleries; creating a new body of art and being super deep and such... my brain shuts down. so let's not worry about it and have some fun! 

here are some watercolours i was messing with. can't seem to drop the SKULLS heh.

on to some work i've been up to, and awesomeness to come... here is the new cover for the 2nd installment of ALL YOUR FATES, an awesome multi-dimensional novel on WATTPAD, and soon to be much much more ;)   that is all i will say for now. lets just say i will be buying a crap load of new pens!

here is a link to chapters! READ!>>  ALLYOUR FATES  <<

also! will be launching new site, shaking off the past and moving forwards! intend to get back into the thick of things, working the FB fan page, the tweets, the blog, the whole nine! here is a monster i drew at work. yay free time at work to draw random stuff!... mostly monsters. yep. it is what it is.

 

wish you all the best. hope 2013 works pretty sweet with you all. lets all get our shits together and live awesome lives! 

cracked feet

so there is what i can only describe as a crack down the bottom of my foot, the sole of my foot if you will. although it probably shouldn't be, i cant help but find it entertaining... the very odd part of me is thinking how neat it would be if my foot split open and a new foot was revealed. a secret foot of sorts. yup.

ok this entry may have gotten off on... the wrong foot here. HAW HAW! so good.

but seriously folks. all is well, been drawing random things here and there, this is good. need to work bigger! unfortunately i am currently lacking the midnight hours and space to accomplish this. on the plus side i will be moving wicked soon and THEN i will have this which i currently lack and will have officially run out of excuses.

so i set up that ETSY page i was talking about some time ago. currently has 20 things. please check it out! if you have money and the desire you should buy stuff, if not you should spread the word. if you do not wish to do either... you should go draw something. just cuz.

here are 2 random drawings i did at work. the first came from the word HEIGHT from Illustration Friday. though i have never actually submitted anything its always nice to get an email every week with a random word. the second came from a conversation at work where i said "hey i drew a Princess.. what should she be doing?" and the reply was "i dont know... eating a sandwich?" so then yea. this happened. cool? cool.

i would have more pretty, and complete drawings i did at work to show you if it wasn't for the girlfriend lending me Tina Fey's book. its too hilariously distracting! also i actually gotta work...

i am off to sleep now. until i can find a way to give up sleep for permanent i will forever be dragged down by needing to lay to rest every few hours and dream crazy crazy dreams. nighty nights all!

what day is it?

crossing days off the calendar, moving forwards towards the next day and the next, each bearing great resemblance to the previous. marked by moments of enlightenment and desire to DO this and CHANGE that and then just like that these feelings of euphoria are gone in an instant and we are back to the regular rhythm of life. but hey, lets focus on the exciting moments why don't we?

in June i will have a new address. i will have a new neighborhood. a new route. new view from my window. this is exciting, this is frightening, as milestones in life always are.

on THAT note... i don't really want to move with any large pieces of art i have kicking around, don't want to deal with the annoyance of storage etc etc.. so i figure i will drop prices and try to move as much stuff as i can! make more space in the moving truck and add a few bucks to my pocket! win win!

also on a similar note, i am working on re-doing the website. new feel. new art. new direction. same awesomeness and assortment of skulls and junk!

been drawing random stuff. found a new kind of "paper" at the art store the other day. its got the wheels in my head turning. ♫ A Daaangerous Past time, I know! ♪ before i pack up the PC and my pens i hope to get the site up and running and have the shop doing its thing! will be sure to keep you all in the loop. though of course if you have not already done so... pls LIKE my Facebook page. its just easier to holla at y'all!

neither here nor there

i have a Transformers calendar hanging by my bed. i try to write in every relevant event that comes to pass. it helps me keep track of what i did and when, but also seeing something scribbled on almost every page makes me feel pretty good about being a do-er. opposed to just a guy that thinks he does but doesn't.

Valentine's day passed, thats pretty exciting right? spent it with my lady, this year she was in charge of EVERYTHING, which is kind of a jerk move but it was fun in the end. we went out for dinner followed by amateur night at Yuk Yuk's. also she got me this great, uber cute, pop-up V-day card! which just happens to be in scale with some action figures... which i'm pretty sure was her plan all along. or not.

my lovely lass also got me some chocolates and the February issue of Juxtapoz that i really wanted but couldn't seem to find. it featured awesome artist Jeremy Geddes. just amazing, solid work. comes to no surprise that he paints 12hrs/day 7 days/week, the hours of work really show through. oh if i could only be so dedicated, who knows what i could accomplish.

got home at midnight from work 2 days ago and decided to bust out the ol' watercolours. threw down some ink and water. followed through with some pen afterwards. pretty happy with the results. they seem to me to be dream or nightmare giants of some kind. maybe they walk through sleeping cities unleashing all kinds of madness. i think this is something i can build on. magazine reading and recent conversations really have me thinking that i should be doing more studies and preliminary work before taking on a "real" piece.

the scans of the pictures came out weird, maybe i need a better scanner, or maybe i just need to make more work to scan and learn how to scan more accurately as i go.

so thats what i have been up to this week. how are things with you? think i am going to stick to smaller works/studies for a bit longer until i feel they are getting nice and meaty enough to make a meal out of. thinking of throwing the smaller works on etsy or something. make a few quick bucks.

back in the day

i remember the days when i was a young kid growing up, looking in the mirror, dreaming about blowin' up.... but seriously folks...

like any problem one should start at the beginning. the whys of the world. why does hugo draw? well.. because it just makes sense to. its just the way its always

been. until recently its always been my source of peace and sense of fulfillment. need to recapture the magic.

was going through some Juxtapoz books i have. good times. always cool to

read how others got started, how they fell into their craft, how they caught their big break.

oh but how frustrating it is! trying to find the love again... talking about this... heh performance issue with a friend the other day she came to the conclusion that i have changed as a person, and as such it does not make sense for me to continue to make the same work and expect the same satisfaction when i myself am different. this makes sense.

here is a shot of a much larger piece i have been throwing lines at for the past couple of days. its ok i guess, thinking of moving away from so much black, moving towards more and more lines and details and less abstract mess. dont know how i feel about this one. boo-urns.

brought some watercolour paper to work... dont have a desk to actually paint or anything but coffee is always on hand. so then these came out. fun enough.

in the process of packing still. a bit on the early side but its fun for some reason... packed away some of my smaller sketchbooks. so crazy looking through them. these go back as far as 04! with all the crap i have these are the books that matter the most. comics, artbooks, action figures, DVDs, junk and junk... it can all be replaced. THESE books a

re one of a kind. part journal, part image development, so many stories are told.

ctrl + A + delete

if all goes well i will be elsewhere in 4 months. a different view from my window, a different route from here to there. though i mean this in the literal sense that involves picking up address change forms at the PostOffice i also mean this in the metaphorical sense in regard to my brains.

for some time now i have had this urge to put everything away. out of sight, out of mind. neatly sorted in cardboard boxes in the recesses of my mind. is that the easy way out? to force things out of sight in order to better focus on what matters? to wear blinders instead of just willing my eyes to look forward....

i have been trying to keep busy. just going at it, whether the results are to my liking or not its good to just get moving in the right direction. forwards, upwards, just keep swimming. anyways heres what came out since last posting in the few minutes i find time to just ink away.

its difficult to get into the draw draw drawing rhythm again. also i am trying to stop falling back to the same routine of things. i'm not trying to be someone completely different but want to change up some. know what i am meaning? am also working on a larger piece, these little doodles may have warmed me up a tad, hopefully something good will come out of this.

i hope that like Stella i can, in time, get my GROOVE back. how are you people of the internet feeling these posts? watching me pick myself up off the floor and prop myself back at the drawing board... only time will tell.

"And why do we fall Bruce?"

hopefully it does not rain on Monday

hey,

so, today i woke at my usual bright and early 11am, rolled out of bed and stumbled over to the old computer to see what had transpired the night before. to my surprise a date had been set for the RAPTURE without me knowing. not that i feel im so special that i should have been notified about JUDGMENT DAY or anything of the sort but i did feel that it was something i too should have clued in on... as i was one of the few people on facebook with this knowledge.

if you are reading this the whole RAPTURE thing fell through and plans were changed and we are still kicking around on this dirt planet, or perhaps you were left behind or something, i am not sure how it works.

all jokes aside, this, in combination with the fact that my girlfriend's sister is leaving for an undisclosed amount of time to another Province got me thinking about goodbyes.

we close doors, we turn our backs and walk away, we hang up phones... there are so many moments in a day when we bid farewell to another, and allow them to exit stage left till the next scene. we have all come to understand the world in such a way that we know the other person exists even though we are not in contact with them. we know this as a fact. although it is not something we question so much anymore in this day and time perhaps we should. this is where the RAPTURE comes in to my thoughts.

what if? ( very powerful words )

what if that which has been foretold did happen? by no means is this leading to a religious debate, but i mean what if that something which you never expected to actually happen happened? it doesn't have to be something insanely huge as the end of days... everyday we walk away from loved ones knowing we will see them again, taking for granted their companionship, their very existence. but the truth is we don't know when the next time will be. as mundane as the world may seem there are always an insane number of choices made with a practically infinite number of possible outcomes! if everything can happen how can we live life so calmly being so sure of things? now, lets not be morbid; i am not saying that we should be cautious because people die left and right and you never know. death is only one of the doors in the long hallway that is life. we change our minds everyday, and as such change our futures. life is change. tomorrow is completely unknown! and thats not a scary thing... i mean it is but.... its exciting too!

we should stop treating each other so shitty. somehow that is the conclusion to my rant.

anyways since most peeps don't wander onto my blog to read my crazy rants, here are some pictures.

first off here are some drawings in lil book. fun times.

here we have full images of new work i had been teasing about earlier. unfortunately i took a super long time to upload them. few of them have already sold. check out Galerie D'Este to see what they still have available if you is interested ;)

let's see... what else can i ramble on about?

overall things are swell. trying not to gain too much weight from the lovely girlfriend's lovely baking. watching some Avenger's Earth Mightiest Heroes. good cartoon action.

saw Thor the other day it was good.

peace out. xo

lumbar support

hello there,

hows you been?

i have been ok. slaving away at this and that, trying to find a little me time here and there.

have been having some crazy dreams man, which always seems to be the case! in one dream i as losing my mind a la A Beautiful Mind... in another dream i was having an odd dream involving Ice Cube... we were discussing his shitty movies and the bad choices he has made leading up to them. t'was weird.

i will now go into a rant reading from a terribly scratchy scribbled dream written out in the middle of the night. nonsense begin!:

i think it begins with you. we're just lying in bed. however you are someone else. you are telling me this... a connection between a lake drying up and a thought about the end of the world. more people.... word i cant read... dancers. explain truths? -change- im being tested by my aunt. taking multiplechoice questions... simple but nothing makes sense.. i start to make connections between number and things. people. dancing. random thingd in room leading them all to think i am crazy though i know i am not. -change- there are children. idiot savants. again numbers. connections. writing on glass, remembering the dreams. head in the dreams. trying to explain the dream where people all think im crazy - all the while i start to make connections and begin to write numbers. at one point im writing a series of numbers and as i do i see the larger.. matrix of the numbers in my head. as i weite they change and you and i get goosebumps and begin to laugh... crazy. again you. not you... i am explaining everything to you and you are concerned. you are being played by Katie Holmes.. Dustin Hoffman plays my doctor. he says sometimes i get angry and have moments of delusion and nonsense... -change-.. waiting in elevator. kid drops bus transfer no.69. numbers are missing from elevators.. it starts over again. your hair is black. blonde. wig? you are tired of hearing about my dream, of my memories. its all a mess... and it goes on like this for 2 more pages.

fun right? yea i know.

here are some scribbles scribbled out while not busy at work.

also. Superman All Star was released as an animated movie based on the graphic novel. it was pretty awesome. awesome in that it was actually very nicely tied to the book. as such it was not so much enjoyed by the peeps i watched it with as they don't fall Superman at all and could not really follow what was going on and why.... well, i liked it.

lately i have been watching Batman the Brave and the Bold while i paint and such. its pretty cool. the style is different from the usual Bruce Timm. still very enjoyable. storylines are "cuter" than usual.. eh well... for da kids!

also!! a blog i follow entitled Action Figure Blues which reviews and discusses action figure... action picked me as their super random lucky monthly comment winner and i won a Robin figure! hurray for me! this is awesome because i didn't have one. and yes i needed one. now you know. again thanks to Andy of AFB and Mike's Comics n' Stuff for the lovely prize

here is another random doodle. i dunno.

but yea. my back hurts. boo-urns.