Still here.

Its not that I have forgotten I have a blog its that I have stopped caring.

The rise of Facebook, Status Updates, the race for Likes, and instant gratification have made long-winded blogs a thing of the past. At least in my personal opinion. Well, now that I think about it I suppose they have been replaced with Vlogs and Podcasts. Much how good books get turned into bad movies, written pourings of the soul become flashy videos filled with special effects and a soundtrack by Kanye West.

The other day Facebook reminded me of an event that took place 7yrs ago, which led me in search of certain images long since forgotten, which led me to this old blog of mine. Since then I have been flipping through the posts like an old man flipping through a highschool yearbook only to realize they don't recognize half the faces.
Going through old posts I cant help but chuckle at the enthusiasm I once had, but also I can't help but frown at how little things have actually changed.
Not to say that life has been a constant downward spiral or anything of the sort, there have been plenty wonderful moments in the past years, memories that I wouldn't trade for anything in the world... but that sense of "I do not know what I am doing with my life" has not gone away. Even after all these years I am without a sense of direction. Its pretty frustrating.

If you are reading this... you are probably here by accident hah. Or a subscriber with an active account? Either way I am surprised you are reading this.
I think I need to keep writing posts here and there if only to ensure that the blog does not close on me. Its nice to be able to back in time every now and then, I would be upset if it all just disappeared one day.

Hope you are well.

F5

Things are different. Without being aware of the changing things have changed. I think I know who I want to be, or better said, I know who I have to be. I need an end game, an actual plan, because things are different. If I fail and fall I wont be the only one with bruises, maybe I can convince myself that mediocrity isn't too bad, but it's not just about me anymore. It really shouldn't come as a surprise, knew it would happen... but then why am I still trying to figure this out? I'll figure it out. Eventually. Been focusing more on drawing. The illustrator game, I don't really think it's the ticket out of the hole I've dug myself but its probably the only ticket I have. Unless the lotto ticket in my pocket is worth anything ;)

I drew the first guy on the left for an idea I have for what the new website will look like...wasn't entirely convinced so I kept making more. Stopped at 4, posted them up on my Facebook page to be voted on. Number 3 won! ...which is great...but I'm still not 100% sure haha. Here are some sketches and such I've done, I apologize for the instagram filters haha, seems to be the only way/reason I document things lately.. that needs to change.

Doing this through a phone app, don't know how it'll actually look like in the end. Trying to limit how much time I waste being a zombie in front of laptop and actually get work done!! @#&##%&!! And on that note... gotta get making some lines. Rebuild one line at a time. Hrmmm kinda makes me sound like a coke fiend.

i do? i did, and will do it again.

i am now a married man.

i didn't think this would actually make much difference... but it does. as it turns out there is so much more to it than the paperwork and sharing medical benefits. i can't explain it. its the little things; saying "my wife", seeing her happily change her last name on facebook. its magical.

the wedding was perfect. not a single complaint. could not have asked for anything else... other than more time off from work, but alas i have bills to pay.

here is a picture of our first kiss. after the vows and all that stuff.if you were wondering... yes i cried. we had selected one poem to be read. i will include it here only because it was so great and so fitting; we are fun, totally non-religious folks and this poem hit the spot.so here it is in case any of you are in the same boat and can't find anything good. we had altered it a bit for our purposes but here is the original.. its a bit long:

I Like You by Sandol Stoddard Warburg

I like you and I know why.
I like you because you are a good person to like.
I like you because when I tell you something special, you know it’s special
And you remember it a long, long time.
You say, “Remember when you told me something special?”
And both of us remember

When I think something is important
you think it’s important too
We have good ideas
When I say something funny, you laugh
I think I’m funny and you think I’m funny too
Hah-hah!

I like you because you know where I’m ticklish
And you don’t tickle me there except just a little tiny bit sometimes
But if you do, then I know where to tickle you too

You know how to be silly
That’s why I like you
Boy are you ever silly
I never met anybody sillier than me till I met you
I like you because you know when it’s time to stop being silly
Maybe day after tomorrow
Maybe never
Too late, it’s a quarter past silly!

Sometimes we don’t say a word
We snurkle under fences
We spy secret places
If I am a goofus on the roofus hollering my head off
You are one too
If I pretend I am drowning, you pretend you are saving me
If I am getting ready to pop a paper bag,
then you are getting ready to jump
HOORAY!

That’s because you really like me
You really like me, don’t you?
And I really like you back
And you like me back and I like you back
And that’s the way we keep on going every day

If you go away, then I go away too
or if I stay home, you send me a postcard
You don’t just say “Well see you around sometime, bye”
I like you a lot because of that
If I go away, I send you a postcard too
And I like you because if we go away together
And if we are in Grand Central Station
And if I get lost
Then you are the one that is yelling for me

And I like you because when I am feeling sad
You don’t always cheer me up right away
Sometimes it is better to be sad
You can’t stand the others being so googly and gaggly every single minute
You want to think about things
It takes time
I like you because if I am mad at you
Then you are mad at me too
It’s awful when the other person isn’t
They are so nice and hoo-hoo you could just about punch them in the nose

I like you because if I think I am going to throw up
then you are really sorry
You don’t just pretend you are busy looking at the birdies and all that
You say, maybe it was something you ate
You say, the same thing happened to me one time
And the same thing did

If you find two four-leaf clovers, you give me one
If I find four, I give you two
If we only find three, we keep on looking
Sometimes we have good luck, and sometimes we don’t
If I break my arm, and if you break your arm too
Then it’s fun to have a broken arm
I tell you about mine, you tell me about yours
We are both sorry
We write our names and draw pictures
We show everybody and they wish they had a broken arm too

I like you because I don’t know why but
Everything that happens is nicer with you
I can’t remember when I didn’t like you
It must have been lonesome then
I like you because because because
I forget why I like you but I do

So many reasons
On the 4th of July I like you because it’s the 4th of July
On the fifth of July, I like you too
If you and I had some drums and some horns and some horses
If we had some hats and some flags and some fire engines
We could be a HOLIDAY
We could be a CELEBRATION
We could be a WHOLE PARADE

See what I mean?
Even if it was the 999th of July
Even if it was August
Even if it was way down at the bottom of November
Even if it was no place particular in January
I would go on choosing you
And you would go on choosing me
Over and over again

That’s how it would happen every time
I don’t know why
I guess I don’t know why I really like you
Why do I like you
I guess I just like you
I guess I just like you because I like you.

yea its a bit long. we didn't realize how long it was until it was read out loud... also here is a picture of my insanely beautiful Wife. i know every Groom says the same thing... but wow... she just blew me away.

i got married on the Saturday that just passed. i made a commitment to be with this special woman for the rest of my life and whatever may follow. afterwards we went to Niagara Falls to unwind, where i met up with a tattoo artist friend from OCAD and got my first tattoo - which shows off my commitment to my horrible dog Chester. apparently i really love my dog

its been an eventful week. now that the wedding is out of the way i can focus on the future. which for me hopefully involves lots of drawing, painting and relaxing with the Mrs.

will i be pretty? will i be rich?

there are 8 days left til my wedding,
the wedding is affecting my dreams now. the other night i went back in time to visit my in-laws for some reason. fancy stuff right?

when we were dating i remember asking a magic 8 ball what was in store for us. it was always positive, and when it wasn't i shook it again until it was haha. that's life isn't it? we try to squeeze the things we want to into the crazy superstitions and wishes we make. try to make sense of idiotic horoscopes and fortune cookies.

what will i be when i grow up? handsome? rich? ...whatever will be will be. i guess.

i mean how terrifying would life be if you had any idea of what your actual future will look like. every step would be a nightmare. fortunately we are pretty blind to the future. ignorance is bliss?

am i old yet?

30 days from now i will be married

a couple of days after that we will be welcoming the year 2014.

months will pass and i will be a 30 year old, married man. will i still be working the same miserable job? will my to-do list still be as long as it is today? will my string of bad financial decisions catch up with me? will i continue to collect action figures and the sort? oooh such concerns for the future!!

what am i going on about? am i actually concerned about these things? am i so vain that i worry about the white hairs that will probably soon outnumber the dark ones?... provided of course i still have hair.

the answer: mmmaybe. i don't know for certain. but that's really the root of all these concerns. the uncertainty of the future. i have a long, long list of plans and hopes and dreams, but unfortunately the time and energy i have allotted to attack this list is very limited. therein lies the rub.

so i am still on this dead-giant-astronauts kick. the above is one of many in the works. colouring takes more time than drawing sometimes. i blame technology....

so all these drawings and ideas are starting to actually become something in my head. i have an idea for what can be a pretty awesome zine/small book. not to give too much away; it is related to the one-way Mars trip that was announced. i keep thinking about it! i mean, i am obviously not going to apply (also its too late) but the very concept of it has turned my world upside down!

drew this a while back. then coloured it and made some prints to sell at a show. need to make some more and get printed. maybe assemble some postcards for peeps. ah the list! the list!!

apparently it has been a long while since i have posted on here, so of course there are tons of drawings that have passed between now and then. my apologies to whoever actually checks this blog. yes you. you!!

got some hardwood scraps to work on. maybe i will do a few more. if they were a bit longer i can connect them in various combinations and make some fantastic exquisite corpses. 

nothing too exciting to report. just felt the need to post SOMETHING! if things go well in my brains i will be able to post more frequently and with actual content. but who knows for sure. as i said, so much is uncertain. well... not everything i suppose.
30 days from now i will be married. so even though i am unsure of where i will be and what i will be doing in the years to come; i know who i will be with. and that makes me pretty gosh-darn happy. even if i can't get her to read a comic-book :-\

bring me back a souvenir.

What will be, will be, as it has already been. You have already made every possible decision you will and can ever make, your paths are etched into stone, you just don't realize it.
What if dreams are not a dream-scape, or messages in metaphor from the future, or crazy stories your imagination decides to tell you to keep you entertained; what if they are actually memories of different paths you have taken.

Where are you going with this hugo? Where is this all coming from?

Well, this morning I was pulled out of the dream by my dog wanting to go outside... but the dream he tore me out from what a linked dream; a spinoff of some kind. How often do we have dreams that we desperately try to take something from, a souvenir. Sometimes an object, something we have been missing, looking for, maybe its money or a fantastical device. Sometimes we awaken and all we want is to remember a face, a number, a name. I know its an irrational and romantic notion that one can actually meet someone in a dream... but hey, I am an irrational, romantic person.

As I was saying; the dream that my overzealous terrier woke me from was mainly based on my wanting to remember a name from the previous dream. I'm quite the lucid dreamer, and in this dream I was "aware" that I was dreaming, so when I met this other woman I knew that I was engaged and that this was not that woman, which was then explained to me in the dream that it was a different reality, a different choice was made. Evidently I had known her since elementary school and we had stayed close since. Awake and completely conscious I can honestly say I have lost contact with everyone I have known since then, so who knows.   Anyways, in the dream to follow I was obsessed with finding out who it was.

Now this is where things get complicated, I woke up, fell back asleep, maybe for the 3rd time while all this was going on; and this time we were all planning a party of some kind. A trip. I had a bunch of family in a house I did not recognize trying to plan an elaborate family vacation. For whatever reason my brothers and I left the house because we needed to get masks, we went into the store just down the street and looked through what little they had for costumes. It was a very limited selection, because evidently Halloween was that very night (oddly enough I have many dreams around this concept).      As I walk out of this shop, empty handed, I notice who I think is the girl from the previous previous dream enter the shop beside this one. This place was much fancier, trinkets and such. I wonder what I can say to her, how should I not sound crazy... in the dream from way back we already knew each other, this time I was a stranger but apparently still had memories of trying to find her from that previous dream. In the end I don`t go up to her at all, as I am distracted by a little cupcake charm, reminding me of my wife, and sending me back home.

I rush back home, different house now. Unknown people answer the door, there is a party, there is my wife (or fiance in reality), throwing a piece of chocolate cake in the air, failing to catch it in her mouth... apparently this is the game thats going on. She is wearing a very pretty dress, a light teal, she has a hat on with feathers, there is something odd, something off about her that I don`t realize until after, or maybe its just so frightening at this stage in my life that I do not want to think about it. She says hi, light kiss and a hug that only she can give. Shortly after I wake up. Realizing that my 2nd alarm went off about half-hour ago and I should get moving. As I lay there in bed trying to piece together the fading memories, I conclude to myself that everything is real. That everything we dream of is real.... but just not in this reality. Just not in this chain of choices.

Does this apply to crazy-ass dreams where you can fly and you fight ninjas?
Yes. Especially.

I don't really have a purpose for posting this. Its not leading up to anything. Really I am just jotting down ideas before, like the dream, they fade away.

Hope you are all doing well. Gosh I need to start posting more! Maybe I should sleep less.

imported breakfast cereals

hey. hows it going?
i'm doing alright, chugging along the track i have laid out for myself. checking things off my daily lists, high-fiving myself metaphysically  things are good. if not for the sudden return of winter outside, i would say things are fantastic. but who am i to complain about the weather? i know my complaints and lengthy letters to the weather bureau won't actually affect anything, but hey, we all do it.

i have an instagram account now! i will be using it to post pics of works as i am working on them, maybe some action figure photos... pictures of the dog... and food i guess, since that does seem to be the primary purpose of this app. i dont know how, if i even can, put a link to my instagram flow thinger... so just look me up! HUGOISAGHOST  is my thing. my handle...

so yea, i post stuff like this ^  and then later on will post the finished piece either on my FB page or on here, or wherever... until i get the website redone and shiny again this will be the way i get stuff out... or i will keep some pieces secret until i can BAM show on new site!

 i feel like i am going back to my roots. back to the basics. drawing for the hell of it, on random pads of paper here and there. i have 2 nice pads of vellum paper, 2 watercolour pads... oh yea, i think im good for a couple of weeks. debating what will become of the full roll of mylar from way back. something will happen. something. i enjoyed working on mylar too much to just walk away from it. so we'll see..

most every drawing i do lately has at least one skull involved. not necessarily a bad thing... or a good thing. i think i have to try to avoid the skulls a bit, just to make sure i can. just to make sure i am not trapped to forever draw skulls!

been doodling on coloured paper too. using a pen of different weight, putting lines down on funky colours... it really calls forth a new level of fun in subject matter. more punch! i guess i have always known this... but just saying. Oh! so i have decided that i will release a new zine or... lets say before May. i have not put together a zine since 2009! i only have one copy of that zine and its so nice to look back on. need to revisit the art of zines!!! i intend to actually put effort into spreading the news and shipping these badboys out. opposed to sitting at a table at a zine fair and waiting for the people to come to me. no no no. no more of that nonsense.  gotta go for the kill! grrrr... grr... meow.

on an unrelated note i have had Elmo's song stuck in my head. but instead of the actual words i have meows. its pretty awful. maybe more coffee will make it stop. yes... that makes sense.

hours to go!

hey internet peoples!!

this year is just about up, drinks are being poured, lists for changes are being made... and after all is said and done, its just another day. 

hey so the world didn't end a couple days ago, thats pretty cool, would have been a bummer for sure! hope everyone is doing good, in good health and all that, high spirits. things are good on my end, been busy here and there and so on... lets see... biggest piece of news; got ENGAGED! madness i know. if you know me you know its been a long time coming and i couldn't be happier! now comes the incredible stress and panic of planning the actual event. 

on the art front its been pretty quiet. i did however come to a revelation... i'm an "illustrator" more than i am anything else. if you ask me to draw you a ninja squirrel i will laugh for a few minutes and get it done with gusto! though having to stop and try to think of getting back into galleries; creating a new body of art and being super deep and such... my brain shuts down. so let's not worry about it and have some fun! 

here are some watercolours i was messing with. can't seem to drop the SKULLS heh.

on to some work i've been up to, and awesomeness to come... here is the new cover for the 2nd installment of ALL YOUR FATES, an awesome multi-dimensional novel on WATTPAD, and soon to be much much more ;)   that is all i will say for now. lets just say i will be buying a crap load of new pens!

here is a link to chapters! READ!>>  ALLYOUR FATES  <<

also! will be launching new site, shaking off the past and moving forwards! intend to get back into the thick of things, working the FB fan page, the tweets, the blog, the whole nine! here is a monster i drew at work. yay free time at work to draw random stuff!... mostly monsters. yep. it is what it is.

 

wish you all the best. hope 2013 works pretty sweet with you all. lets all get our shits together and live awesome lives! 

the wee hours

its 1:51am, i have not been awake at this hour for some time, or rather, i have not been awake at this time with a paintbrush in my hand for a long time. i don't know if i like what i am working on or if it will actually amount to anything but i am doing it, and this pleases me.
almost 2months ago i turned 27, which is the oldest i have ever turned, though today i am older than that, and once i click the button to publish this ranty blog entry i will be older still. every now and then a new white hair announces itself to the world, my temples slowly winterizing.

nothing has really changed, work is work, my free time is still looking for a real purpose. but overall things are well. i am still crazy in love with my lady, my four-legged friends are healthy and happy, no real complaints here.

art? well i'm still drawing and doodling all kinds of weird shtuff while the hours crawling by at work. scribbles and such i have been posting on my TUMBLR. check'er out yo!

thats where my online presence wanders. also the nerdy page i update as slowly as i keep this one going. been spending some energy with my brother and his IronMan life, probably too much Iron in my brains.

still doing the skulls whenever i can. still good times. this is what i'm working on right now; it's already changed a big deal since i took the picture, the end result will be... something.

it feels like i have been posting on this blog but it turns out i haven't, its been that damn tumblr! so lets see what else is visually enticing and new? well, i am taking part in a badass Lovecraft based Zine! brainchild of the talented Trevor Henderson the zine is entitled PUFFED SHOGOTHS, has some serious talent on board and will def be a site for sore eyes! 

here are my 2 humble entries: 

i will keep yous guys up to date with that zine. be sure to pick one up when they happen!

the time is now 2:52am, and my back hurts. its not that i type so incredibly slowly but rather that i get crazy distracted. between penning details on whatever the heck i'm working on and watching season one of this "new" CGI styled GreenLantern cartoon. good times. but this chair does suck, and as much as i want to go to bed... its too late for that. Jess will be getting up for her baking job very soon, and to crawl into bed a mere half hour before she gets up, risking waking her up, its not worth it. 

well, lets wrap this up. i need to lie down on the couch or something i guess. catch y'all next time. hopefully not months down the road. geez man!

putting off epiphanies

blowing the dust off my thoughts, surveying the multiple boxes of words and ideas with no place to go and as such remain boxed up in storage... is it a matter of TIME? need i be patient and wait for my half-empty cup to fill? to runeth over? i don't know. everything keeps getting put off, life getting in the way of life. pointless hobbies and unnecessary sleeping devouring any available time i have. time not spent in front of a screen assisting others live their lives, the 8 hours wasted to make someone else's dream come true while mine is put on hold. when is it going to be MY turn? when will the world stand still, the ball stop, the dart fly and land on my name?

it feels like the internet is trying to tell me something. various images popping up on my FB newsfeed from various friends feeling so specifically directed at me, when in fact they are posted by friends that find themselves in the same hole as i, and as such they speak to them... well at least i am not alone.

the internet is simply loaded with these images! different voices saying the same thing. DO IT! just get off your ass and fucking do it! there is no reason why you can't be happy. no reason why you cannot achieve your dreams but first you have to go for it. take aim. fire.

we are all so unhappy at times with the same routine life but continue to do so because well, there is no other option. bills need to be paid. food needs to be put on the table and no money does not grow on trees... and even if it did it would requires lots of work and maintenance i'm sure! heck i cant even keep these little potted herbs from dying!

you are what you want to be. life is what you make of it. if theres a voice in the back of your head telling you to make time for your passion, to not forget what truly makes you happy.. well.. you should listen to it. 

i know i sure as hell need to.

need to clear my desk of all this clutter and junk and lay down some crisp white emptiness on which to free myself. 

yea....

well what else can i tell you? i have been living with the gf for just over a month now. its very awesome. i am very happy. now if only i can get art going i would be a COMPLETE person... and hopefully that wont lead to some scale being unbalanced and horrible shit happening haha.. that would suck.. well, goodnight!

cracked feet

so there is what i can only describe as a crack down the bottom of my foot, the sole of my foot if you will. although it probably shouldn't be, i cant help but find it entertaining... the very odd part of me is thinking how neat it would be if my foot split open and a new foot was revealed. a secret foot of sorts. yup.

ok this entry may have gotten off on... the wrong foot here. HAW HAW! so good.

but seriously folks. all is well, been drawing random things here and there, this is good. need to work bigger! unfortunately i am currently lacking the midnight hours and space to accomplish this. on the plus side i will be moving wicked soon and THEN i will have this which i currently lack and will have officially run out of excuses.

so i set up that ETSY page i was talking about some time ago. currently has 20 things. please check it out! if you have money and the desire you should buy stuff, if not you should spread the word. if you do not wish to do either... you should go draw something. just cuz.

here are 2 random drawings i did at work. the first came from the word HEIGHT from Illustration Friday. though i have never actually submitted anything its always nice to get an email every week with a random word. the second came from a conversation at work where i said "hey i drew a Princess.. what should she be doing?" and the reply was "i dont know... eating a sandwich?" so then yea. this happened. cool? cool.

i would have more pretty, and complete drawings i did at work to show you if it wasn't for the girlfriend lending me Tina Fey's book. its too hilariously distracting! also i actually gotta work...

i am off to sleep now. until i can find a way to give up sleep for permanent i will forever be dragged down by needing to lay to rest every few hours and dream crazy crazy dreams. nighty nights all!

what day is it?

crossing days off the calendar, moving forwards towards the next day and the next, each bearing great resemblance to the previous. marked by moments of enlightenment and desire to DO this and CHANGE that and then just like that these feelings of euphoria are gone in an instant and we are back to the regular rhythm of life. but hey, lets focus on the exciting moments why don't we?

in June i will have a new address. i will have a new neighborhood. a new route. new view from my window. this is exciting, this is frightening, as milestones in life always are.

on THAT note... i don't really want to move with any large pieces of art i have kicking around, don't want to deal with the annoyance of storage etc etc.. so i figure i will drop prices and try to move as much stuff as i can! make more space in the moving truck and add a few bucks to my pocket! win win!

also on a similar note, i am working on re-doing the website. new feel. new art. new direction. same awesomeness and assortment of skulls and junk!

been drawing random stuff. found a new kind of "paper" at the art store the other day. its got the wheels in my head turning. ♫ A Daaangerous Past time, I know! ♪ before i pack up the PC and my pens i hope to get the site up and running and have the shop doing its thing! will be sure to keep you all in the loop. though of course if you have not already done so... pls LIKE my Facebook page. its just easier to holla at y'all!

on to something....

this February has 29 days. its a leap year. i suppose this means we have an extra day to leap forward, leap into something. change. also woman can propose to men on the 29th. in Denmark the tradition applies to the 24th of Feb, if a man rejects her he owes her 12 pairs of gloves.

life is not one-directional, we have to learn to switch paths and make quick decisions, roll with the punches, keep on moving towards what matters. i don't have a 5-year plan, never had... maybe i could use one, who knows.

i have been working towards change, taking from the past what works and letting go of what has lost its appeal. so my initial idea was to venture back into the world of comics and tights to draw inspiration from. started this one some days ago, before the images in my previous post... have decided to let it go. not quite feeling it.

i have decided to focus more on being an "illustrator" than a "fine artist" it feels better. the former title fits more comfortably, more space to move and p-p-party! would rather not stress myself worrying about the fancy galleries and wine parties that alienate me, rather go back to focusing on kickstarting some tshirts and stickers. maybe a vinyl figure! thats what i want. and that is what i will do.

the watercolours i had posted previously really got me thinking of these "dream giants" i have come up with. have decided to pursue this idea further. i don't know what will come of it, but something will happen. feeling pretty good about this... who knows what dreams will come, heh.

these are 8x10, much more work needs to go into them. whether i will consider them finished pieces or "studies" only time will tell. stay tuned in! catch you next time... same sky time? hugo time? hugo channel? OK lets drop that.

neither here nor there

i have a Transformers calendar hanging by my bed. i try to write in every relevant event that comes to pass. it helps me keep track of what i did and when, but also seeing something scribbled on almost every page makes me feel pretty good about being a do-er. opposed to just a guy that thinks he does but doesn't.

Valentine's day passed, thats pretty exciting right? spent it with my lady, this year she was in charge of EVERYTHING, which is kind of a jerk move but it was fun in the end. we went out for dinner followed by amateur night at Yuk Yuk's. also she got me this great, uber cute, pop-up V-day card! which just happens to be in scale with some action figures... which i'm pretty sure was her plan all along. or not.

my lovely lass also got me some chocolates and the February issue of Juxtapoz that i really wanted but couldn't seem to find. it featured awesome artist Jeremy Geddes. just amazing, solid work. comes to no surprise that he paints 12hrs/day 7 days/week, the hours of work really show through. oh if i could only be so dedicated, who knows what i could accomplish.

got home at midnight from work 2 days ago and decided to bust out the ol' watercolours. threw down some ink and water. followed through with some pen afterwards. pretty happy with the results. they seem to me to be dream or nightmare giants of some kind. maybe they walk through sleeping cities unleashing all kinds of madness. i think this is something i can build on. magazine reading and recent conversations really have me thinking that i should be doing more studies and preliminary work before taking on a "real" piece.

the scans of the pictures came out weird, maybe i need a better scanner, or maybe i just need to make more work to scan and learn how to scan more accurately as i go.

so thats what i have been up to this week. how are things with you? think i am going to stick to smaller works/studies for a bit longer until i feel they are getting nice and meaty enough to make a meal out of. thinking of throwing the smaller works on etsy or something. make a few quick bucks.

back and forth

this past week has been all over the place; good news, bad news... neutral news that really just becomes an irritating "maybe" in life, and everything in between. i have made so many lists in my little notebook you'd think i was printing receipts. does that make sense?

anyways so i put down some lines to add to the underlayer of this very blue piece i had started up some time ago. through it in a frame (broke one sheet of glass in the process) and called it a day. i like it, its pretty OK, but its not different enough. its still very much in the same place the others came from.

detail shot. many details are still lost in the shot, all in all though there is more drawing than usual. also switching back to pens n such instead of nibs and bottles of ink allowed for quicker easier lining.

no need/desire to go into details but past events have really got me thinking that i need to push. like, really push. not just in regards to effort and hours but also a need to push in a different direction.

my brother would always say "your paintings suck! you should just draw mor

e!" it was always about the drawing, its what came naturally... the work that came out these past years was always rooted in the attempt to combine paint/abstract with the lines that i have always known... maybe its time to put that experiment to rest. it was

fun while it lasted, got some good hype, learned a few things. in the end i feel that i came to depend on the same style and process for too long. like a shark i need to keep

swimming forwards in order to avoid sinking.

just keep swimming. keep swimming.

on a side note, my dog Chester has started classes. if you know me and have met this beast you would know he is not what you would call a well-behaved dog. hes loveable to the max but also loud and ka-razy! so far things have been going very well and i am so excited for the day he can run around freely at the dog park. i will be in tears! kid you not!

back in the day

i remember the days when i was a young kid growing up, looking in the mirror, dreaming about blowin' up.... but seriously folks...

like any problem one should start at the beginning. the whys of the world. why does hugo draw? well.. because it just makes sense to. its just the way its always

been. until recently its always been my source of peace and sense of fulfillment. need to recapture the magic.

was going through some Juxtapoz books i have. good times. always cool to

read how others got started, how they fell into their craft, how they caught their big break.

oh but how frustrating it is! trying to find the love again... talking about this... heh performance issue with a friend the other day she came to the conclusion that i have changed as a person, and as such it does not make sense for me to continue to make the same work and expect the same satisfaction when i myself am different. this makes sense.

here is a shot of a much larger piece i have been throwing lines at for the past couple of days. its ok i guess, thinking of moving away from so much black, moving towards more and more lines and details and less abstract mess. dont know how i feel about this one. boo-urns.

brought some watercolour paper to work... dont have a desk to actually paint or anything but coffee is always on hand. so then these came out. fun enough.

in the process of packing still. a bit on the early side but its fun for some reason... packed away some of my smaller sketchbooks. so crazy looking through them. these go back as far as 04! with all the crap i have these are the books that matter the most. comics, artbooks, action figures, DVDs, junk and junk... it can all be replaced. THESE books a

re one of a kind. part journal, part image development, so many stories are told.